A Day in the Life 11/30/10

     So… I have been out of commission for the past couple of weeks and I’ll explain what happened. It all started 3 weeks ago, my friend ThatGurl, who was originally called “Toto”, Said she was going to LA with one of her friends” I was like “ that’s cool,  whatever”, Now Nov 2nd rolls around and she posts on Facebook about selling some of her Lolita clothes. Later, one of her friends say that they want to see, then she said something that pretty much made my heart drop. She said that, and I quote “Oh you will! If I can steal my BOYFRIEND’s camera…..” I know she wasn’t she wasn’t talking about me, because I asked her if she wanted to hangout before this and she said she “had plans”.

    Now, Nov 4th, I flat out told her I need to talk to her, and later that night, when I saw her, I asked her “if
we were still dating”, she said “Oh I thought this was public knowledge” (Never a good sign) I said “No, I wasn’t told anything” then she said “I thought we talked about this before, and we said that we’ll still be friends” and I asked her “if we still had a chance” she paused, then said “yes, but just not now” (again never a good sign, not too sure but she might have just lied to me, but hey what do I know). So the night ended with a hug and that was it.

    Now Nov 7th, I’m browsing Facebook, and I see that she posted something on her status about her being in LA and it said and I quote “My BOYFRIEND’s here for work and I decided to tag along.” Right there, that simple line of words, not doing anything but being words.…….. KILLED ME! Not gonna lie, I couldn’t eat, sleep, or do anything, until she came back on the 10th, even then I struggled trying to eat solid foods. It felt like someone went through my heart with a sword, pulled it out and put it back in, in another position, then continued to run through me, then pushing the butt of the sword forward with their foot making it hurt more. Hate to say this, but I was actually contemplating how I was going do it.

   So… The last couple of weeks, if been walking around like I was dead and planning what I was going to say to her when I see her again. Only one small problem, I couldn’t muster up the courage to tell her how I really feel (NO BALLS!!!!). The worst part is because I’m holding back, my thought are beginning to manifest itself it to all these negative, and bad thoughts. So I have no choice, I have to tell her. Would like to know what you guys think.

    Oh and about my car I got it fixed and it came to $770, and the funny thing was when I went to go get the car, the mechanic was like “the car works perfectly, there should be nothing wrong with it”. So I went to go get the car, I went in the car, and the car didn’t start up. So I told the mechanic said I just pulled the car out 1hr ago, there was nothing wrong. So he gave me back my check and then said we’ll take a look at it tomorrow, so I had to walk home. The next day, the mechanic called up and said that one the other mechanics pulled the plug out of the battery, that’s why it didn’t start. I just laughed.

there's the song thats been playing in my head for the last 2 weeks,



minus all the gay things lol